Dark Night

I dont think the pain will ever subside...just when i start feeling slightly at peace about my decision, waves of fresh pain paralyze me and have me questioning my sanity. Theres this dull ache in my heart..how could i let go of someone so perfect, so loving and caring? How could i inflict such pain upon him..it kills me knowing how much i've hurt him. I can't keep talking to him...it just opens the dam of tears and heartache that i keep so tightly held back throughout the day..Nighttime is the worst...God please, if you have any compassion on your children, be near to him now...bring him your touch of comfort and peace...may he find you and may he rest in the comfort of your wings. And God..please allow peace to pervade my heart....i pray you take the edge off my pain.